Monday, January 31, 2011

Days 12 - 14: recap & weigh-in

Ugh.

That is the only word that can accurately describe how I feel about my diet this past week. I cheated like 6 times.

I was good on Friday. I ate yogurt and cheese and nuts and then made scallops, broccoli, and bacon-wrapped steak for dinner.

Then the weekend came. I had designated Saturday for cheat day, because we were having a Chili festival, so cheat I did: beer, chili, chips with clam dip, cookies with Funfetti, s'more brownies, vodka etc.

Sunday also came with some cheating: burger w/ french fries for lunch. Dinner @ Panera (cobb salad, macncheese).

Despite all of this cheating, I weighed 152.2 on Sunday morning. How this is possible, I don't know.

What this means is that I lost .4 pounds over the past week, which makes no sense because I ate my little heart out. Not that .4 pounds is anything exciting, but still. I'm shocked I didn't gain all four pounds that I lost back!

Weigh - In Recap

1st weigh in:
156.4
Last weigh in:
152.6
Most recent weigh in:
152.2
Total weight loss:
4.2 lbs

I mean, it's not much, but it's definitely something.

Today, I put on a pair of skinny jeans and they slid on quite nicely. I was excited about it.

I'm vowing to be good this week. So much better than last week.

Food for thought

Brunch: one low fat string cheese, 3 slices of turkey breast

Late Lunch: one 100 calorie yogurt, 2 cups of banana chips with crunchy peanut butter, bottle of water

Dinner: two pieces of sashimi tuna w/veggies, steak salad with bacon vinaigrette, hot cocoa with whipped cream vodka

Friday, January 28, 2011

Day 11: snow day indulgences

I have been SO bad this week. I feel horribly, terribly guilty for my lack of resolution and inability to resist deliciousness.

I was quite horrified to step on a scale mid-day yesterday [gotta do it when you can!] and see that my weight was back at 156. Of course, this was the middle of the day and I was wearing clothes...so hopefully that factors in a few pounds. Hopefully.

Not that I deserve to be at 152. After the cheats earlier this week and the cheats today coupled with lack of gym-age, it would serve me right to be 170. *Shudder*

Here's the cheat-o-rific breakdown. I cringe thinking about it:

Breakfast: non-existent

Lunch: sesame chicken with noodles & corn, coffee

Dinner: turkey breast wrapped in provolone, pickles, green apple, Dr. Pepper

After dinner: two mini snickers bars, 2 cups of Diet Pepsi

Verdict: FAIL.

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Day 10: cheater cheater bagel eater

It's true. I've been really bad in the last 24 hours. This is what happens when I am bored and living in one room.

Last night while on duty, I consumed a cup of Diet Pepsi. It was delectable. I also had 3 mini snickers. Evil people leaving delicious and tempting things around! I have no willpower at midnight after a super-long day :(

Today, I went to a breakfast meeting and obviously had to have a bagel. I was like Okay, that's fine. I had my Diet Pepsi last night and I'll count that as one cheat and then the bagel will be my second cheat for the week and then I still get a full cheat day. I'm golden.

And I was. Until five minutes ago, when I returned to my room and realized that I had nothing to do except play the Sims and glare at a box of goldfish smiling at me from atop my closet. Eat me! the smile said. I don't know about you, but I have a hard time saying No to a smile.

Breakfast: 1 bagel with low fat cream cheese, cup of coffee

Lunch: 100 calorie blueberry yogurt, 1 low-fat string cheese, a handful of almonds

Dinner: 1 hot dog, 5 celery stalks with peanut butter

After dinner - at 11 p.m., nonetheless! : cup'o'goldfish

As I sit in my bed enjoying my cup of carbs with the sleet pelting my window, I dream of a better time, 48 hours ago, when I was merrily refraining from eating at all and feeling optimistic about the gym days to come. Oh, how quickly the might have fallen! And oh, how quickly will my weight rise!

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Day 9: settling

Aside from having to get up at 6 a.m., I'm having a great day! Having such an early start to my day means that I can have a more regulated meal schedule - which is much healthier than my usual one-meal-a-day.

I am really liking my schedule so far this semester. Even though it's only the second day, I feel like I'm starting to settle into my routine and also into a better meal routine. I plan on using the kitchen to prepare foods whenever I'm on duty and on the nights when I'm in the building (for simple things, like tonight's lentil soup). For breakfast, I normally grab a yogurt and one other thing and I hope to have lunch at Res at least 3x a week. [I also wanted to go to the gym at least 3x a week, and we all know how that's working out...]. But anyway, yes. Schedule = good.

Today =

Breakfast: vanilla Chobani yogurt with almonds & dried cranberries, cup of green tea with honey

Lunch: eggplant & chickpea curry, black beans with guacamole, banana, chocolate milk

Snack: green tea with mint, nectarine

Dinner: lentil soup

Day 8: One week in!

I'm having my week-aversary today with this no-carb diet, and I have to say it's been a pretty delightful relationship thus far. I did another weigh-in this morning and am at 152.6 (went up .2 lbs since weigh in 3 days ago...I can thank pizza, Coldstone & chocolate for that!), but I'm still pleased with my results. I mean, if I lost four pounds every week, I could be nonexistent in 39 weeks. Awesome.

I still haven't made it to the gym yet, which is a bummer. But how can I be expected to want to go when it's either -100 degrees out or snowing all the time? Seriously.

Today, I finished the last of my three Chobani yogurts.

Chobani verdict: Thanks, but no thanks. I found the consistency to be awkward, the flavor to be sour, and the price to be expensive [comparatively]. I had to mix a ton of trail mix or other things to tone down the taste of the yogurt. All in all, it wasn't a very satisfying experience. I think I'll stick with my Yoplait 100 calorie cups, thanks.

Food for thought

Breakfast: honey chobani yogurt with tropical trail mix, one low-fat string cheese

Lunch: one low-fat string cheese, apple

Snack: cup of orange pekoe tea, 1/2 of a dark chocolate-peppermint candy bar

Dinner: a happy accident! I bought tilapia, but turns out that magical ponies have a certain distaste for such fish. Improvised and made a veggie stir-fry with asparagus, bean sprouts, mushrooms, onions and black beans in an herb-garlic marinade. Honestly, it was like the most delicious thing I've eaten in a long time. Also had 1/2 of a glass of Merlot.

Suggestion: bean sprouts are a GREAT substitute for pasta. They take on the flavor of any marinade and still add some substance to your meal. I plan on keeping them in stock.

Also, I'm making an addendum to my diet. I know I said no eating after 8 p.m., but on nights like tonight when I don't get to even make dinner until 8:30/9, that doesn't really work. So here we go: No snacking after 8 p.m. No full meals after 9:30 p.m.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Day 7: Awesome cake

Today, I put on a pair of pants that were a little tight for me towards the end of the semester and they are officially too big! I mean - don't get me wrong, my hips will hold up any pair of pants - but they now give me horrible sag-ass and bag in the legs.

I am hoping to some day fit back into the pants I've been holding on to since Sophomore year. I realize this is a long stretch, since I looked mildly anorexic back in those days. And you know what? Even when I was mad skinny, I still wore a size 6/8. Thank you, hips. I shall never ever be capable of wearing anything smaller than that.

I tried the Chobani yogurt this morning (pomegranate flavor) and wasn't too excited by it. It had a strange texture and I noted that there is a lot of sugar & carbohydrates in it. I understand that it has a lot protein, but I'm not sure why everyone is so into it. Enlighten me?

Speaking of food:

Breakfast/Lunch: 1 pomegranate Chobani with a handful of raw almonds and dried cranberries mixed in, 1 low-fat string cheese, a handful of creme-brulee almonds

Early dinner: 3 slices of low-fat deli turkey, a handful of Wasabi peas, an apple, a cup of mint green tea

I might have another small snack around 7, since I ate "dinner" at 4:30. I have to say that so far, the no eating after 8 thing is working out well. In general, this whole diet is working well. I am SHOCKED by how much I don't miss carbs. Zero cravings. None.

I am also feeling really really good. I worried that I would feel lethargic, but I don't. I went to Old Navy today and felt SO good about myself. Everything looked great. Additionally, I was able to score two sweaters, a dress, three fancy shirts, two long sleeve shirts, a scarf, and an insulated lunchbox for under $50, so that was icing on the awesome cake.

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Day 6: cheat day & results

So I did my first weigh-in on Tuesday and weighed 156.4 lb. Today, I weighed in at 152.4... Which means that I've lost exactly 4 lbs! Holllla! I am now only 3 lbs away from being under 150, which is sexy....and only 12.4 lbs away from my goal weight. I'm SO okay with it!

Of course, today happens to be cheat day...hopefully this influx of cals won't go straight to my hips!

Breakfast: waffles, coffee ( both made by a magical pony)

Lunch: small bowl of sesame ginger stirfry (carb-free with corn, spinach, peapods, chicken, onions, water chestnuts, and mushrooms)

Dinner: cheese pizza, diet pepsi, and a "like it" cheesecake fantasy ice cream @ Coldstone

Well, there go the four pounds I lost!

On the bright side, I bought the Chobani yogurt that everyone has been recommending to me and I am eager to try it. I am also surprisingly looking forward to being back on my diet tomorrow. The first time I went food-shopping, I felt very overwhelmed by everything that I couldn't eat. Today, I had an easier time spotting things that I could & actually wanted to eat. I bought black bean burgers and a western veggie mix, as well.

In addition to allowing myself one full cheat day per week, I am also allowing myself two small cheats a week. So, for instance, the one bag of pita chips I consumed earlier this week plus one cup of diet pepsi plus all of the stuff I ate today would = my total cheats for the week. I think that sounds pretty reasonable.

Today, when i say "I can do this," I have way more faith that I can.

I just need to start going to the gym and I will be golden. 140 here I come!

Friday, January 21, 2011

Day 5: so far, so good

Today I am SO tired. I stayed up really late last night putting the finishing touches on my hallway in preparation for my residents, who will return on Sunday.

On a good note, though, my diet today has been pretty stellar!

Breakfast: one 100-calorie yogurt, 1 cup of tropical trail mix [dried pineapple, banana chips, raisins, papaya, coconut], water

Lunch: one low-fat string cheese, 1/2 cup of dried apples, 1/3 cup of honey-roasted almonds

Dinner: low fat kielbasa sautéed with peppers and onions, honey balsamic green beans, bloody Mary

Day 4: win some, lose some

Aside from my epic breakfast fail [read: 2 donuts!], I was actually able to redeem myself somewhat with my food intake for the rest of the day.

Breakfast: one chocolate glazed donut, one apple crumb donut, 1 cup of cranberry juice

Quick Lunch: (I legit only had 10 minutes to eat) 1 cup of minestrone soup [didn't eat the noodles], 1 cup of diet pepsi [eh, small slip. it's just so good!]

Dinner: 5 slices of turkey wrapped in 2 slices of swiss cheese, one soup bowl of steamed broccoli, 1 cup of skim milk, 1 cup of coffee with 2 creamers and 2 sugars

According to Alli, I should be consuming 1400 calories a day. I'm not sure if what I'm eating contains that many calories, though I'm going to go out on a limb and guess that those donuts definitely satisfied my daily cal intake!

It was nice to reintroduce a fresh veggie and some fruit juice into my repertoire. Thanks, UMD. I look forward to eating more of your offerings in the near future.

On another note, it would be awesome if I weren't too tired to go to the gym every day. And also if it didn't snow, thus making the gym even less desirable.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Day 3: the thing about diets is...

that they're self imposed. If you're a closet carb-eater, who is going to know it once the doors are shut? The only person you have to answer to is yourself. The only thing you feel is guilt and regret. There are no immediate consequences for your slips.

Still, I suppose feeling guilty is enough to prove that you have had a change in thinking...which has to mean something, right?

So yes, dear blog readers, what this means is that I did indeed eat a 200 calorie bag of parmesan garlic & herb pita chips at around 7:30 this evening. It was an impulsive move on my part. This is what I get for not ridding my room of all dietary-no-nos (I just couldn't stand the thought of throwing away all of that food!).

Also, it has come to my attention that I'm not really going to be able to do a good job with the diet this week. We will be eating mostly bagged meals and options will be extremely limited. In other words, if I want to eat at all, I don't really have much of a choice. And tomorrow happens to be a donut breakfast. That's the only option. Donuts. I don't even like donuts that much. But just thinking about being able to cheat and eat one is giving me a slight thrill. Is that normal?

I've been talking to a lot of people about dieting, etc. I signed up for alli.com - which is a website which provides pills for people who want to lose weight. I'm not going to buy the pills, but I am going to use their tips and dietary guidance to help me on my journey. According to their website, my BMI is in a healthy range, so hooray on that! I'm not considered obese by a bullshit bunch of standards!

I've also been weighing the pros and cons of limiting myself from eating something. It might have averse effects. For instance, I felt so devilishly guilty eating those pita chips that I enjoyed them more than I would have on a normal occassion. And the same goes for the donuts. Normally, I would just be like Eh, donuts...whatever. But because I told myself that I can't have them, I'm all DONUTS?!!!!!!?!?!?!!! WOOT!

I'm not sure if this is a good thing or a bad thing. Is it good that I feel guilty because it means that I am being more conscious of my consumption or is it bad because I am getting more excited about my indulgences? What potential habits could this create for me? Could it lead to binge eating or more closet behavior?

Lots of questions.

Anyway, up until my pita chip slip, I was doing pretty well for myself:

Breakfast: 100 calorie fat free yogurt, 1/3 cup tropical fruit trail mix

Lunch: 1 low fat string cheese, 4 slices of low fat deli turkey, 1 cup of dried cranberries & almonds, 5 chocolate meringues (which are basically egg whites and cocoa powder in a light and fluffy form - super low calorie, low-carb and low-fat)

Dinner: small bag of parmesan garlic & herb pita chips (which only had 28g of carbs...9% of the RDV), green tea with mint [healthiest. dinner. ever.]

What's missing from my diet? Fruits and vegetables and substantial protein. I am loving the deli meat, but my sides are lacking. I'm definitely looking forward to the start of the regular school year so I can help balance myself out a little bit. It's clear to me that I won't be meeting my body's nutritional needs if I keep eating out of a dorm fridge and a microwave. Translation: I need a kitchen!!!!!

And for those of you who were wondering: I didn't go to the gym today. My pass isn't activated yet and I can't get into it. However, I may or may have not have done some high-quality dance-aerobics to David Guetta in my room *cough*. This is one time when it's perfectly okay to indulge behind a closed door.

Tomorrow = donuts for breakfast. no gym. lots of sitting through boring things. and no idea as to what the rest of the day's menu holds. I am going to try to be healthy about this, but I make no promises.