So I'd taken a brief hiatus from the world of blogging to spare you from the "I'm a terrible cheating cheater!" entries which dominate my entire page at the moment.
However, I will say that amidst all that cheating, I went to the gym one time! Hooray! I ran a mile on the treadmill and did a mile on the elliptical. I would like to say that that set a trend for me, but honestly...college living has to be the worst atmosphere to create a steady life full of delicious routine and good eats. Seriously.
I went away this weekend and partook in much carb-eating. By the end of the weekend I felt pretty gross. My magical jeans which normally fit me no matter my size felt a little snug on Monday and I was none too happy about it.
I had originally decided to screw the diet, because it is terribly hard for me to maintain any big lifestyle changes when my lifestyle is the reason for all of this in the first place. Inconsistent hours, lots of time commitments, and lack of a kitchen really make for bad decisions. However, after stepping on the scale on Sunday and noting that I was back at 155, I realized that enough is enough and I wanted to put those restrictions back on myself.
During the weeks when I was doing well with the diet, I felt SO good. Even though I'd snuck in a few cheats, I just felt slimmer and more confident and more energetic. So I've decided that back to the diet it is. And if I have to cheat a few times along the way, whatever. I think the root of that issue is thinking about it as cheating. If I think of this diet as an obligation, I will fail. If I think of it as something that I genuinely want to do for myself and have the results in sight, I will do much better for myself.
I am also feeling pressured to be more athletic. I know that I am going to have an active summer with people who are far more naturally active than I am, so I certainly have to take the initiative to train and get myself in good enough shape that I can keep up with them.
Motivation, motivation.
Today
Breakfast: low fat string cheese, mint green tea, red apple, tropical trail mix
Lunch: kale soup, turkey breast
Dinner: portabello mushroom salad
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Days 15&16: low
I don't know if I'm just feeling the effects of the despondent weather or if I'm suffering from SAD or if I'm just bored, but these last few days I have felt super low-energy and lethargic. I know it's not from lack of carbs, because I cheated three times yesterday. I dunno. I've just felt blah.
Anyway, I wanted to start this week off with a clean slate, but I obviously haven't done a very good job of it. I didn't cheat on Monday, but Tuesday wasn't so good.
Food for thought
Breakfast: 100 calorie yogurt, low-fat string cheese
Lunch: chicken nuggets [first fail], spicy black beans, red delicious apple, chocolate milk
Snack: banana chips with crunchy peanut butter
Dinner [or lack thereof]: two cups of goldfish [second fail], pomegranate seltzer
After dinner: rainbow cupcake [third fail]
Today has been alright so far, but then again I'm only 3 hours into my day. I am scheduled to go to the Maple Ridge Gym @ 6 tonight with a new gym buddy. I feel like I just need to try something to get my spirits up [or at least make me feel better about myself], and hopefully exercise will do the trick.
Anyway, I wanted to start this week off with a clean slate, but I obviously haven't done a very good job of it. I didn't cheat on Monday, but Tuesday wasn't so good.
Food for thought
Breakfast: 100 calorie yogurt, low-fat string cheese
Lunch: chicken nuggets [first fail], spicy black beans, red delicious apple, chocolate milk
Snack: banana chips with crunchy peanut butter
Dinner [or lack thereof]: two cups of goldfish [second fail], pomegranate seltzer
After dinner: rainbow cupcake [third fail]
Today has been alright so far, but then again I'm only 3 hours into my day. I am scheduled to go to the Maple Ridge Gym @ 6 tonight with a new gym buddy. I feel like I just need to try something to get my spirits up [or at least make me feel better about myself], and hopefully exercise will do the trick.
Monday, January 31, 2011
Days 12 - 14: recap & weigh-in
Ugh.
That is the only word that can accurately describe how I feel about my diet this past week. I cheated like 6 times.
I was good on Friday. I ate yogurt and cheese and nuts and then made scallops, broccoli, and bacon-wrapped steak for dinner.
Then the weekend came. I had designated Saturday for cheat day, because we were having a Chili festival, so cheat I did: beer, chili, chips with clam dip, cookies with Funfetti, s'more brownies, vodka etc.
Sunday also came with some cheating: burger w/ french fries for lunch. Dinner @ Panera (cobb salad, macncheese).
Despite all of this cheating, I weighed 152.2 on Sunday morning. How this is possible, I don't know.
What this means is that I lost .4 pounds over the past week, which makes no sense because I ate my little heart out. Not that .4 pounds is anything exciting, but still. I'm shocked I didn't gain all four pounds that I lost back!
Weigh - In Recap
1st weigh in: 156.4
Last weigh in: 152.6
Most recent weigh in: 152.2
Total weight loss: 4.2 lbs
I mean, it's not much, but it's definitely something.
Today, I put on a pair of skinny jeans and they slid on quite nicely. I was excited about it.
I'm vowing to be good this week. So much better than last week.
Food for thought
Brunch: one low fat string cheese, 3 slices of turkey breast
Late Lunch: one 100 calorie yogurt, 2 cups of banana chips with crunchy peanut butter, bottle of water
Dinner: two pieces of sashimi tuna w/veggies, steak salad with bacon vinaigrette, hot cocoa with whipped cream vodka
That is the only word that can accurately describe how I feel about my diet this past week. I cheated like 6 times.
I was good on Friday. I ate yogurt and cheese and nuts and then made scallops, broccoli, and bacon-wrapped steak for dinner.
Then the weekend came. I had designated Saturday for cheat day, because we were having a Chili festival, so cheat I did: beer, chili, chips with clam dip, cookies with Funfetti, s'more brownies, vodka etc.
Sunday also came with some cheating: burger w/ french fries for lunch. Dinner @ Panera (cobb salad, macncheese).
Despite all of this cheating, I weighed 152.2 on Sunday morning. How this is possible, I don't know.
What this means is that I lost .4 pounds over the past week, which makes no sense because I ate my little heart out. Not that .4 pounds is anything exciting, but still. I'm shocked I didn't gain all four pounds that I lost back!
Weigh - In Recap
1st weigh in: 156.4
Last weigh in: 152.6
Most recent weigh in: 152.2
Total weight loss: 4.2 lbs
I mean, it's not much, but it's definitely something.
Today, I put on a pair of skinny jeans and they slid on quite nicely. I was excited about it.
I'm vowing to be good this week. So much better than last week.
Food for thought
Brunch: one low fat string cheese, 3 slices of turkey breast
Late Lunch: one 100 calorie yogurt, 2 cups of banana chips with crunchy peanut butter, bottle of water
Dinner: two pieces of sashimi tuna w/veggies, steak salad with bacon vinaigrette, hot cocoa with whipped cream vodka
Friday, January 28, 2011
Day 11: snow day indulgences
I have been SO bad this week. I feel horribly, terribly guilty for my lack of resolution and inability to resist deliciousness.
I was quite horrified to step on a scale mid-day yesterday [gotta do it when you can!] and see that my weight was back at 156. Of course, this was the middle of the day and I was wearing clothes...so hopefully that factors in a few pounds. Hopefully.
Not that I deserve to be at 152. After the cheats earlier this week and the cheats today coupled with lack of gym-age, it would serve me right to be 170. *Shudder*
Here's the cheat-o-rific breakdown. I cringe thinking about it:
Breakfast: non-existent
Lunch: sesame chicken with noodles & corn, coffee
Dinner: turkey breast wrapped in provolone, pickles, green apple, Dr. Pepper
After dinner: two mini snickers bars, 2 cups of Diet Pepsi
Verdict: FAIL.
I was quite horrified to step on a scale mid-day yesterday [gotta do it when you can!] and see that my weight was back at 156. Of course, this was the middle of the day and I was wearing clothes...so hopefully that factors in a few pounds. Hopefully.
Not that I deserve to be at 152. After the cheats earlier this week and the cheats today coupled with lack of gym-age, it would serve me right to be 170. *Shudder*
Here's the cheat-o-rific breakdown. I cringe thinking about it:
Breakfast: non-existent
Lunch: sesame chicken with noodles & corn, coffee
Dinner: turkey breast wrapped in provolone, pickles, green apple, Dr. Pepper
After dinner: two mini snickers bars, 2 cups of Diet Pepsi
Verdict: FAIL.
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Day 10: cheater cheater bagel eater
It's true. I've been really bad in the last 24 hours. This is what happens when I am bored and living in one room.
Last night while on duty, I consumed a cup of Diet Pepsi. It was delectable. I also had 3 mini snickers. Evil people leaving delicious and tempting things around! I have no willpower at midnight after a super-long day :(
Today, I went to a breakfast meeting and obviously had to have a bagel. I was like Okay, that's fine. I had my Diet Pepsi last night and I'll count that as one cheat and then the bagel will be my second cheat for the week and then I still get a full cheat day. I'm golden.
And I was. Until five minutes ago, when I returned to my room and realized that I had nothing to do except play the Sims and glare at a box of goldfish smiling at me from atop my closet. Eat me! the smile said. I don't know about you, but I have a hard time saying No to a smile.
Breakfast: 1 bagel with low fat cream cheese, cup of coffee
Lunch: 100 calorie blueberry yogurt, 1 low-fat string cheese, a handful of almonds
Dinner: 1 hot dog, 5 celery stalks with peanut butter
After dinner - at 11 p.m., nonetheless! : cup'o'goldfish
As I sit in my bed enjoying my cup of carbs with the sleet pelting my window, I dream of a better time, 48 hours ago, when I was merrily refraining from eating at all and feeling optimistic about the gym days to come. Oh, how quickly the might have fallen! And oh, how quickly will my weight rise!
Last night while on duty, I consumed a cup of Diet Pepsi. It was delectable. I also had 3 mini snickers. Evil people leaving delicious and tempting things around! I have no willpower at midnight after a super-long day :(
Today, I went to a breakfast meeting and obviously had to have a bagel. I was like Okay, that's fine. I had my Diet Pepsi last night and I'll count that as one cheat and then the bagel will be my second cheat for the week and then I still get a full cheat day. I'm golden.
And I was. Until five minutes ago, when I returned to my room and realized that I had nothing to do except play the Sims and glare at a box of goldfish smiling at me from atop my closet. Eat me! the smile said. I don't know about you, but I have a hard time saying No to a smile.
Breakfast: 1 bagel with low fat cream cheese, cup of coffee
Lunch: 100 calorie blueberry yogurt, 1 low-fat string cheese, a handful of almonds
Dinner: 1 hot dog, 5 celery stalks with peanut butter
After dinner - at 11 p.m., nonetheless! : cup'o'goldfish
As I sit in my bed enjoying my cup of carbs with the sleet pelting my window, I dream of a better time, 48 hours ago, when I was merrily refraining from eating at all and feeling optimistic about the gym days to come. Oh, how quickly the might have fallen! And oh, how quickly will my weight rise!
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Day 9: settling
Aside from having to get up at 6 a.m., I'm having a great day! Having such an early start to my day means that I can have a more regulated meal schedule - which is much healthier than my usual one-meal-a-day.
I am really liking my schedule so far this semester. Even though it's only the second day, I feel like I'm starting to settle into my routine and also into a better meal routine. I plan on using the kitchen to prepare foods whenever I'm on duty and on the nights when I'm in the building (for simple things, like tonight's lentil soup). For breakfast, I normally grab a yogurt and one other thing and I hope to have lunch at Res at least 3x a week. [I also wanted to go to the gym at least 3x a week, and we all know how that's working out...]. But anyway, yes. Schedule = good.
Today =
Breakfast: vanilla Chobani yogurt with almonds & dried cranberries, cup of green tea with honey
Lunch: eggplant & chickpea curry, black beans with guacamole, banana, chocolate milk
Snack: green tea with mint, nectarine
Dinner: lentil soup
I am really liking my schedule so far this semester. Even though it's only the second day, I feel like I'm starting to settle into my routine and also into a better meal routine. I plan on using the kitchen to prepare foods whenever I'm on duty and on the nights when I'm in the building (for simple things, like tonight's lentil soup). For breakfast, I normally grab a yogurt and one other thing and I hope to have lunch at Res at least 3x a week. [I also wanted to go to the gym at least 3x a week, and we all know how that's working out...]. But anyway, yes. Schedule = good.
Today =
Breakfast: vanilla Chobani yogurt with almonds & dried cranberries, cup of green tea with honey
Lunch: eggplant & chickpea curry, black beans with guacamole, banana, chocolate milk
Snack: green tea with mint, nectarine
Dinner: lentil soup
Day 8: One week in!
I'm having my week-aversary today with this no-carb diet, and I have to say it's been a pretty delightful relationship thus far. I did another weigh-in this morning and am at 152.6 (went up .2 lbs since weigh in 3 days ago...I can thank pizza, Coldstone & chocolate for that!), but I'm still pleased with my results. I mean, if I lost four pounds every week, I could be nonexistent in 39 weeks. Awesome.
I still haven't made it to the gym yet, which is a bummer. But how can I be expected to want to go when it's either -100 degrees out or snowing all the time? Seriously.
Today, I finished the last of my three Chobani yogurts.
Chobani verdict: Thanks, but no thanks. I found the consistency to be awkward, the flavor to be sour, and the price to be expensive [comparatively]. I had to mix a ton of trail mix or other things to tone down the taste of the yogurt. All in all, it wasn't a very satisfying experience. I think I'll stick with my Yoplait 100 calorie cups, thanks.
Food for thought
Breakfast: honey chobani yogurt with tropical trail mix, one low-fat string cheese
Lunch: one low-fat string cheese, apple
Snack: cup of orange pekoe tea, 1/2 of a dark chocolate-peppermint candy bar
Dinner: a happy accident! I bought tilapia, but turns out that magical ponies have a certain distaste for such fish. Improvised and made a veggie stir-fry with asparagus, bean sprouts, mushrooms, onions and black beans in an herb-garlic marinade. Honestly, it was like the most delicious thing I've eaten in a long time. Also had 1/2 of a glass of Merlot.
Suggestion: bean sprouts are a GREAT substitute for pasta. They take on the flavor of any marinade and still add some substance to your meal. I plan on keeping them in stock.
Also, I'm making an addendum to my diet. I know I said no eating after 8 p.m., but on nights like tonight when I don't get to even make dinner until 8:30/9, that doesn't really work. So here we go: No snacking after 8 p.m. No full meals after 9:30 p.m.
I still haven't made it to the gym yet, which is a bummer. But how can I be expected to want to go when it's either -100 degrees out or snowing all the time? Seriously.
Today, I finished the last of my three Chobani yogurts.
Chobani verdict: Thanks, but no thanks. I found the consistency to be awkward, the flavor to be sour, and the price to be expensive [comparatively]. I had to mix a ton of trail mix or other things to tone down the taste of the yogurt. All in all, it wasn't a very satisfying experience. I think I'll stick with my Yoplait 100 calorie cups, thanks.
Food for thought
Breakfast: honey chobani yogurt with tropical trail mix, one low-fat string cheese
Lunch: one low-fat string cheese, apple
Snack: cup of orange pekoe tea, 1/2 of a dark chocolate-peppermint candy bar
Dinner: a happy accident! I bought tilapia, but turns out that magical ponies have a certain distaste for such fish. Improvised and made a veggie stir-fry with asparagus, bean sprouts, mushrooms, onions and black beans in an herb-garlic marinade. Honestly, it was like the most delicious thing I've eaten in a long time. Also had 1/2 of a glass of Merlot.
Suggestion: bean sprouts are a GREAT substitute for pasta. They take on the flavor of any marinade and still add some substance to your meal. I plan on keeping them in stock.
Also, I'm making an addendum to my diet. I know I said no eating after 8 p.m., but on nights like tonight when I don't get to even make dinner until 8:30/9, that doesn't really work. So here we go: No snacking after 8 p.m. No full meals after 9:30 p.m.
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Day 7: Awesome cake
Today, I put on a pair of pants that were a little tight for me towards the end of the semester and they are officially too big! I mean - don't get me wrong, my hips will hold up any pair of pants - but they now give me horrible sag-ass and bag in the legs.
I am hoping to some day fit back into the pants I've been holding on to since Sophomore year. I realize this is a long stretch, since I looked mildly anorexic back in those days. And you know what? Even when I was mad skinny, I still wore a size 6/8. Thank you, hips. I shall never ever be capable of wearing anything smaller than that.
I tried the Chobani yogurt this morning (pomegranate flavor) and wasn't too excited by it. It had a strange texture and I noted that there is a lot of sugar & carbohydrates in it. I understand that it has a lot protein, but I'm not sure why everyone is so into it. Enlighten me?
Speaking of food:
Breakfast/Lunch: 1 pomegranate Chobani with a handful of raw almonds and dried cranberries mixed in, 1 low-fat string cheese, a handful of creme-brulee almonds
Early dinner: 3 slices of low-fat deli turkey, a handful of Wasabi peas, an apple, a cup of mint green tea
I might have another small snack around 7, since I ate "dinner" at 4:30. I have to say that so far, the no eating after 8 thing is working out well. In general, this whole diet is working well. I am SHOCKED by how much I don't miss carbs. Zero cravings. None.
I am also feeling really really good. I worried that I would feel lethargic, but I don't. I went to Old Navy today and felt SO good about myself. Everything looked great. Additionally, I was able to score two sweaters, a dress, three fancy shirts, two long sleeve shirts, a scarf, and an insulated lunchbox for under $50, so that was icing on the awesome cake.
I am hoping to some day fit back into the pants I've been holding on to since Sophomore year. I realize this is a long stretch, since I looked mildly anorexic back in those days. And you know what? Even when I was mad skinny, I still wore a size 6/8. Thank you, hips. I shall never ever be capable of wearing anything smaller than that.
I tried the Chobani yogurt this morning (pomegranate flavor) and wasn't too excited by it. It had a strange texture and I noted that there is a lot of sugar & carbohydrates in it. I understand that it has a lot protein, but I'm not sure why everyone is so into it. Enlighten me?
Speaking of food:
Breakfast/Lunch: 1 pomegranate Chobani with a handful of raw almonds and dried cranberries mixed in, 1 low-fat string cheese, a handful of creme-brulee almonds
Early dinner: 3 slices of low-fat deli turkey, a handful of Wasabi peas, an apple, a cup of mint green tea
I might have another small snack around 7, since I ate "dinner" at 4:30. I have to say that so far, the no eating after 8 thing is working out well. In general, this whole diet is working well. I am SHOCKED by how much I don't miss carbs. Zero cravings. None.
I am also feeling really really good. I worried that I would feel lethargic, but I don't. I went to Old Navy today and felt SO good about myself. Everything looked great. Additionally, I was able to score two sweaters, a dress, three fancy shirts, two long sleeve shirts, a scarf, and an insulated lunchbox for under $50, so that was icing on the awesome cake.
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Day 6: cheat day & results
So I did my first weigh-in on Tuesday and weighed 156.4 lb. Today, I weighed in at 152.4... Which means that I've lost exactly 4 lbs! Holllla! I am now only 3 lbs away from being under 150, which is sexy....and only 12.4 lbs away from my goal weight. I'm SO okay with it!
Of course, today happens to be cheat day...hopefully this influx of cals won't go straight to my hips!
Breakfast: waffles, coffee ( both made by a magical pony)
Lunch: small bowl of sesame ginger stirfry (carb-free with corn, spinach, peapods, chicken, onions, water chestnuts, and mushrooms)
Dinner: cheese pizza, diet pepsi, and a "like it" cheesecake fantasy ice cream @ Coldstone
Well, there go the four pounds I lost!
On the bright side, I bought the Chobani yogurt that everyone has been recommending to me and I am eager to try it. I am also surprisingly looking forward to being back on my diet tomorrow. The first time I went food-shopping, I felt very overwhelmed by everything that I couldn't eat. Today, I had an easier time spotting things that I could & actually wanted to eat. I bought black bean burgers and a western veggie mix, as well.
In addition to allowing myself one full cheat day per week, I am also allowing myself two small cheats a week. So, for instance, the one bag of pita chips I consumed earlier this week plus one cup of diet pepsi plus all of the stuff I ate today would = my total cheats for the week. I think that sounds pretty reasonable.
Today, when i say "I can do this," I have way more faith that I can.
I just need to start going to the gym and I will be golden. 140 here I come!
Of course, today happens to be cheat day...hopefully this influx of cals won't go straight to my hips!
Breakfast: waffles, coffee ( both made by a magical pony)
Lunch: small bowl of sesame ginger stirfry (carb-free with corn, spinach, peapods, chicken, onions, water chestnuts, and mushrooms)
Dinner: cheese pizza, diet pepsi, and a "like it" cheesecake fantasy ice cream @ Coldstone
Well, there go the four pounds I lost!
On the bright side, I bought the Chobani yogurt that everyone has been recommending to me and I am eager to try it. I am also surprisingly looking forward to being back on my diet tomorrow. The first time I went food-shopping, I felt very overwhelmed by everything that I couldn't eat. Today, I had an easier time spotting things that I could & actually wanted to eat. I bought black bean burgers and a western veggie mix, as well.
In addition to allowing myself one full cheat day per week, I am also allowing myself two small cheats a week. So, for instance, the one bag of pita chips I consumed earlier this week plus one cup of diet pepsi plus all of the stuff I ate today would = my total cheats for the week. I think that sounds pretty reasonable.
Today, when i say "I can do this," I have way more faith that I can.
I just need to start going to the gym and I will be golden. 140 here I come!
Friday, January 21, 2011
Day 5: so far, so good
Today I am SO tired. I stayed up really late last night putting the finishing touches on my hallway in preparation for my residents, who will return on Sunday.
On a good note, though, my diet today has been pretty stellar!
Breakfast: one 100-calorie yogurt, 1 cup of tropical trail mix [dried pineapple, banana chips, raisins, papaya, coconut], water
Lunch: one low-fat string cheese, 1/2 cup of dried apples, 1/3 cup of honey-roasted almonds
Dinner: low fat kielbasa sautéed with peppers and onions, honey balsamic green beans, bloody Mary
On a good note, though, my diet today has been pretty stellar!
Breakfast: one 100-calorie yogurt, 1 cup of tropical trail mix [dried pineapple, banana chips, raisins, papaya, coconut], water
Lunch: one low-fat string cheese, 1/2 cup of dried apples, 1/3 cup of honey-roasted almonds
Dinner: low fat kielbasa sautéed with peppers and onions, honey balsamic green beans, bloody Mary
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